Meraki By Hamer

There are times where you feel suffocated, whether it’s through your own thought expectations. Dealing with this during illness just seems to drain the last bit of energy you have left. Covid is not a joke.

an artwork that represents how I feel made up of: my baby, toddler and teen self make-up me and taking care of each one has helped me heal in tremendous ways.

Inspired by the art challenges online, artists collaborating and adding their own style to famous animations, I decided to create my own realistic version of Bratz Doll Jade!

There are so many talented people out there recreating dolls into more realistic proportionate, appealing, and creative looks on these famous dolls. Artists have gone as far as creating whole outfits and photoshoots, as well as makeup challenges.

I love creating portraits, adding more challenges to my creative mind, and try new perspectives.

This will become a 5 piece series throughout the next few months!

(P.S. Bratz is Trademarked by MGA Entertainment) (This is only FanArt)

This artwork representing digging deep within yourself in self-discovery.

In a dim lighted, hollow yet comfortable room, a little girl is sitting down on her bed. She is feeling sad and fearful and is pondering why.

*Sound of tears falling, muffled crying softly from a distant*

The little girl hears this and grabs her candle. She turns around and raises the light toward the ceiling.

*The walls are slowly shaking, acting almost as if they were crying and feeling lonesome*

The little girl feels empathetic for the walls. She reaches out and caresses gently the quivering surface.

“It’s okay, I’ll be your friend.”

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This story, book and artwork represents healing, acceptance, vulnerability and self worth. As I have become open an active to healing from life, I have realized that I have not been my own friend for many years. Having these high walls up have closed access to my own self, and my inner child is clinging for love and care.

The young girl inside the adult female is the inner child of herself. The little one is feeling sad and alone, hears a cry from afar, and becomes sympathetic, reaching out to help it without judgement. The adult female doesn’t realize at first, her cries for help are heard and she allows herself to experience without fear.

Wanting the ultimate power of God, this worshiping woman turned to the dark side. In order to harness this control, she absorbs it from The Rosary, known to be a powerful tool in prayer to have a close and divine connection with the lord. In her eyes, you can see it transforming into a deep, dark sense that her ill intentions will come true. Transforming into the ultimate villain, she is up to no good.

This artwork is about my experience in the current COVID-19 pandemic situation.

Looking out the window can be both a hopeful and terrifying view. What we can see with our eyes is paradoxical. A dangerous virus surrounds us and we can't see it. What a crazy concept to grasp, but living through this pandemic has been eye-opening. We may see outside all these yellow and black tapes, blocking and closing many of life's joys. This can be very disheartening. On a positive note, this worldwide halt has been an unknown gift. We have all been forced to step back from our busy schedules and connect with ourselves and our loved ones. May we all learn from this and become a better society.

Wide Asleep is about Insomnia. About the mind racing without cause or reason over experiences in life,

what wish we did or didn’t do. The world of possibility that that will always come with the question, What if?

I Can’t and No Puedo is about vulnerability and the war within one’s self to come to terms with the reality of life and moving forward.

I decided to create two pieces that represent this deep emotion. Whether the person embodies darkness or light within their surroundings, what’s on the inside is just as engulfing, painful and troubling.

I Can’t (Dark Version)

No Puedo (Light Version)

I created this painting about a month ago and didn’t have a chance to post it, but the reasons for it is part of the basis of this painting.

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I deal with a lot of anxiety daily, and it has gotten worse this semester. Lots of things going on, which has been paralyzing me with my anxiousness. It’s been hard to create personal paintings for the last few months because of this.

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After much time and striving to get myself to paint again, I decided and was able to paint out an interpretation of my feelings.

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This painting describes my anxiety, how what I feel inside and in my mind, spills out to my surroundings. It’s hard to sometimes see thorough the “clouds”.

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Creating this artwork was therapeutic.

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A calm and relaxed state of mind. Free from worry, concern or anxiety

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The white background represents her having a peace of mind, just focusing on her energy from within and just being present. Closing her eyes and letting the wind gush through allows her to focus on your surroundings and herself on another level.

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This is something I’ve been focusing on reaching for the last few days essentially. The more you work on it, the longer you can remain on that state of mind.

(Reference picture used/credited)

This artwork represents grief, vulnerability and confusion from both a personal view as well from outside.

This artwork is about going through the transition of starting a new chapter in life. Each bubble represents her catching her feelings, emotions, and experiences as she is trying to reach them and feel them. The white side is her losing her touch (past), and the dark blue side is the unknown(future), with her in the middle trying to experience it all (present).

Kokoro : (Japanese) it unites the notions of heart, mind, and spirit: It sees these three elements as being indivisible from one other.

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Do you use your head, heart or gut? We all have a strong intuition between these three forces. There is so much of us inside, that when you make the decision to listen to your inner self, your rays of light coming shooting out.

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There is so much inside, so many answers to your questions, all you need is to listen and to let it all out! There is a lot more potential in you than you really know.

In life, sometimes you have walls or obstacles up, which pushes you back or sets you up for failure. No matter how many times it happens, sometimes you just gotta take a risk and push through. Crush those walls and make bridges instead.

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You're not meant to be stuck in any situation forever. Looks scary? Take it. That means you are going to grow with it, and you will always win or learn in the process.

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If it works, great! It if doesn't, now you know better. It's better to live a life of oh wells than a life of what-ifs!

(Beauty Series P.4)

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Self Portrait of Jeffrey Jewell portrait

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Albino people may lack pigmentation, but they overflow in personality, confidence, strength, and beauty! It doesn't matter what you look like on the outside, or what others may consider as appealing or "normal", you are all beautiful and good enough for the world! The inside is what's most important

We as individuals are shaped every day by words. .

Words that come from the inside and outside influence, from your own self-esteem and from what you experience on the outside world. People can confuse them both, and value more what the outside says then from what they feel within.

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It's important to have a balance between both, because it makes it easier to stay afloat in peace than to drown in misery and confusion. Keep your power, and let every word shape you into the right direction, no matter how difficult your journey has been.

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From what you take in, you take it out as well. Make sure you push out greatness and help others, because we are all in this together, no matter what we're doing.

No matter what anyone says or tells us, at the end of the day you should trust your inner vibes and your gut.

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If you get these deep feelings about something or someone, about an opinion or aspect in your life, you know yourself about your experiences more than anyone else!

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Trust the universe, trust your god, trust your belief system because things don't just happen for anything, it's for a reason and the whole universe/world is more connected than you think

I Love You, is a representation of what love is. Holding hands is the most intimate form of expression of love, both publicly and privately. When you hold someone’s hand, it is like you are holding them up. You feel tingles in between your veins, muscles and blood flow, going through from your fingers to your heart. It a deep connection from the simple sense of touch. Doing so publicly is a way of declaring to the world that that individual is your person. It is so intimate because it is a feeling that only you two can feel. The words that form this shape are the words that represent love.

Experimentation meets color.